Tuesday, October 23, 2012


Meaning the ignoring of part.

That thing wherein, despite checking your Blogger home page every day, you forget that you have TWO blogs to look after. Though I've not been doing much on the other one either. Slow news month!

I haven't written much. I haven't, in fact, written much of anything (that I'm willing to admit) to. Because I've finished writing fic. Yes, that's right. Mostly, I am too tired to be creative. Mostly, I have no plot bunnies for fandoms. And mostly? I'm spending a lot of money a year to get a PhD. I'd rather spend my time doing that then writing fanfiction. I'll save up my writing and work on that book idea after I graduate. And publish my thesis. So, about five years or so from now. Which is fine, actually. I've only ever written because I enjoyed it, not for other people or to get me something. I'm not enjoying it any more because I'm too tired to spend hours at a computer writing fic. I spend hours at a computer writing thesis stuff. That's enough. More than enough, judging by how much my eyes hate me these days! I'd really like to not go blind before I finish this thesis.

So today was my first day in a museum for field research. I was only there for observation and spent most of the 4 hours feeling more than a little overwhelmed. How the hell am I going to get the information I need from the public? Seriously! But I have a month to figure that out, and pilot studies are done for a reason. Still, more than a little stressed right now and I was more than a little stressed, already, yesterday. I'm just pretty much stressed. Period. Not helping that I'm back to being an insomniac and my back is killing me. Both of which would be helped by going to the gym, but I'm too tired to go to the gym! I hate vicious cycles!

But right now it's foggy, dreary, and wet outside and I want tea. And cake. And the telly.